DIARY COUNTDOWN: DAY 181

Weight: 138.5 kilograms

It is Saturday today. Saturday morning. And I am totally ashamed of myself. I know what I have to do and I just did not do it. Not that I ate the wrong stuff. The simple facts is I was chewing on something (either fruits, dry fruits, etc) the whole day through might give one a good idea about what was going on.

This is exactly why I am keeping this diary. This why I am weighing myself on a daily basis. So I could create a self-awareness. I have a burning conscience that will tell me off and that is what helps me going back on track. 

This is also yet another sign that I have to deal with an addiction indeed: I just let myself go for a couple of weeks around Christmas and I find it now very difficult to keep course. That is what usually happens with the alcohol too isn't it?

As I previously stated, I know why I have to do but I don't do it. That reminds me of something apostle Paul wrote in the letter to the church of Rome. To those of you who are not familiar with the word of God, will be probably perplexed to find out that even for this one something reminded me of a Bible verse. This verse came to my mind while I was writing the things above and it stuck with me:

"I find then a law, that evil is present with me, the one who wills to do good. For I delight in the law of God according to the inward man.  

But I see another law in my members, warring against the law of my mind, and bringing me into captivity to the law of sin which is in my members. 

O wretched man that I am! Who will deliver me from this body of death? I thank God—through Jesus Christ our Lord! 

So then, with the mind I myself serve the law of God, but with the flesh the law of sin."

(Romans 7:21-25)

Need to stay on course. I am close to the goal and I shall not give up! There is no way that will happen again. This is just a bump on the road. Keeping my eye on the prize! God bless everyone! Stay cool and have a nice weekend!

DIARY COUNTDOWN: DAY 182

Weight: 137 kilograms

Up the scale again. No wonder. Had lunch at El Cordero yesterday. My Nemesis. So no surprise this morning. I can't help remembering the fact that it was around the same weight I had trouble going lower in December. Seem like there is a pattern over there.

Decided to do the same thing I did back then. Just lower the food quantities at a minimum level. It worked before so I am sure it will work now.

Nothing more to say really. It has been a good though a chilly day yesterday. Unusually chilly in fact for Tenerife. As I am writing this I just heard a local passing by telling another "it's cold". But that means 19 C or 66 F...

God bless you or as the greeks would say it:
Ο Θεός να ευλογεί!
Have a supercalaflagelistic day!

DIARY COUNTDOWN: DAY 200

Weight: 138.8 kilograms

I started being terribly sorry for letting myself go over Christmas and the New Year's Eve... It does not really pay off anymore. Thought I'll be back there in no time but obviously it is not the case. But the show must go on!

Things are happening all the time. You plan them. But I know for a fact that God laughs at our plans. So some of them will workout, some of them won't. That does not mean that you have to stop planning. To me it just means that I have have to move on and adjust them accordingly until you have reached the final destination.

One thing it is always making me sad though... Along the way you meet people. All sorts of them. And I know that everyone is different. I know that we don't value the same things, that we have different cultures, or that we have different tastes.

However I will never understand why and how the truth is so offensive to some. I will never stop being surprised by that one. Jesus was always telling the truth. And yet they had Him on trial and crucified for that, just because they did not like hearing it.

I suspect that it is always the fact that people get upset when the truth is being revealed out in the open. They don't like it. It is offensive to them. Therefore no wonder the Bible is so offensive to so many. Most of the time people have the tendency to think that they have outsmarted everyone.

I call it the "ostrich behaviour", because like the ostrich who puts it's head in the sand thinking that nobody will see it's big rear and feathers, likewise the human think that their words can cover up all the things they do or who they really are. And of course they will be in rage when discovering that is not as they planned!

I love people and that is why sometimes they are so annoying and difficult to love for me even though i know that God has commanded me to love everybody. Sometimes, just because I am so after the truth I forget all about love. That is when I lose my patience, kindness. And even if it happens only for a moment, God always finds a way to show me that I was wrong.

It is really difficult to love people who are obviously against you. That is what I am learning again right now. There are not many of those who know me and dislike me so I have almost forgot that lesson. And some will pull nasty things indeed. It has happened before and it will happen again.

Tomorrow is a new start in the walk with God. Am looking forward to it. Love Jesus with all my heart. He gives me hope and he keeps me going when all the doors are being shut. If I would have to rely only on the humans I would only fail miserably. Time after time. So my hope is Jesus. Always!

Stay cool everyone! God bless!